For whatever reason, A-kon makes me change the way I think about cosplay. And it’s always for the better, but I didn’t think it would happen before I’d even hit the road for Dallas this year.
Grell Sutcliff, Dissidia Kuja alternate version, and Fai Fluorite are coming with me to A-kon this year. Capricious Reaper isn’t on that list.
I couldn’t accomplish what I wanted to before my own due date for the costume, which was tonight at 10 PM. I knew that I wouldn’t be able to do everything with the very short time I get between moving back from university and the convention, but I ignored that until this morning (that, and we have a very strict no-bad-Kuja-cosplay policy here at House of Pavonine Cosplay that began sometime around March). I was placing heavy pressure on the costume: pressure that came from sources that shouldn’t matter as much to me as they do. I have a tendency to be like Kuja sometimes, and a little too much of that is going on with me right now.
I didn’t realize this about myself until this costume, but my Kuja cosplay has gotten to the point where I value the way I represent his character more than I value getting to play dress-up in his clothes. I’d rather not wear him than wear a costume that I believe doesn’t meet my personal expectations for representing him.
I also learned some things about myself while making the costume. Most importantly, I am not a crafts-heavy costumer (which is pretty much 99.9% of Capricious Reaper, and I should have realized this when I developed a method for sewing armor last summer). I like it, but I can’t keep going at it with the same pace and consistency of quality as I can with sewing and tailoring.
That sounds like that’s not too far up Kuja’s alley, but there’s a lot more sculpting in his clothes than it appears. I don’t know when it will be included on my costuming schedule, but I think it’s time I tackled his original costume.